[ Of all the things he'd expected......that's not really it. And the fact that she's trying to keep it encrypted makes it even more sus. ]
who are you hiding from?
[ If it's Kaiba, he's going to have to make an exception to his vow to not murder again. Although, maybe that should have an asterisk beside it anyway...because this place had a way of being unpredictable at best.
....admittedly, though. He does feel warm inside that it's not him she's hiding from this time. ]
what kind of angry are we talking? the kind where they give out your address so you can get annoying magazines? or the kind where they're actively hunting you down with the intent to hurt?
maybe there was a slap?? and a death threat or two????
nbd nbd, we're in hell so death would just be a minor inconvenience, so you don't have to do anything on your end! just don't tell anyone i've moved unless i say it's okay to and everything will be fine! ❤️
[ So now that the bomb's detonated, how to distract from the explosion...?
Ah, yes! ]
btw i found someone that might be able to help with your magic problem 🥰
[ Tech facepalms hard. Why is it always something? Like geesh, can't Monika just have a normal day for once? Maybe even a boring one? One where there's not a threat of her getting murdered? Sure would be nice... ]
it honestly amazes me you got more people who wanna kill you here than i do. and that heart emote doesn't fool me yanno!!! 😤
[ If she uses enough exclamation points, that makes things extra fine. Because her life is NORMAL and FINE. ]
anyway~~
his name is atem. he's a pharaoh!! and apparently he knows a lot about soul magic, so....absolutely perfect right?? 😁😁 i'll send you his contact info in a bit
oh and if he says i'm his wife, don't worry, it's only temporary
you are absolutely not gonna fix it. lucifer can't even annul this marriage of the brides to mammon. what makes you think he can or WOULD do shit about yours? but good luck i guess??????
[ For a girl who wants to be human so bad, she sure spends a whole lot of time away from earth in this land called DELUSION! ]
but the good thing about marriages is they're NBD. you can basically pretend they don't exist. nothing changed between hazel and me lol.
but uhhhh thanks for the name. if he can't help me out, i'll be the first to say he's not very good husband material 😋
is there honestly anyone in your life that's simple and NOT messy right now?
or i'll even take any THING that's simple and not messy right now.....
because every time i get a life update it's like your world's on the edge of falling apart. someone threatening you to a point where you moved, a new marriage you're trying to get annulled, finding out you wanted to hunt me down and murder me after i'd shown you where i lived and everything....
lol i mean fuck, monika. can you have one NORMAL month?
[ There's a long stretch of nothing for a while. She's thinking a lot, which is actually good for once. ]
i don't know how to live normally anymore
[ What a weird thing to admit. But it's true. ]
i just do whatever it takes to be happy.....
after we broke up i didn't know what else to do to keep from spiraling, so i started going after whatever might give me a little of it, even more than i used to
but take it from a guy who has done a whole lot of fucking drugs to escape his problems.....
what buys you happiness for a moment won't last forever. sometimes you need the escape or crutch, but also sometimes you need to sit in your hurt to understand that you don't gotta go to extremes to be happy
like surely when you're playing music, things seem normal for a little while, right? and you're happy. i mean, you seem happy when you play.
your new place have a piano or keyboard or something? i think kaiba's is still floating around in hellburbia. needs a good cleaning, but if you can con some demons into moving it over for you, you can have your own place to create music
[ And yeah. Maybe he'll be bummed that she's not coming to his house anymore to play, but also it's not about him. It's about Monika finding some kind of balance in her life again. ]
[ Again, no immediate responses. It's been a long, long time since she's had someone tell her to, you know, calm down with the crazy. She honestly can't remember the last time someone did so. ]
i guess at least i've stopped with drinking too much champagne?? lol....
maybe i've gotten too used to extremes??? but you're right. whenever i can write music or play it, it reminds me of a time when i had a real goal. when i had something to look forward to
hmm.....
i could probably ask for a piano, or at least a keyboard for portability. i don't think i'd want kaiba's....it'd be too weird to use that one
yours is really nice though. i like the way it sounds
[ And the memories that came with it, but she probably shouldn't say anything about that. ]
i can't constantly bother you to use yours though so....yeah i should probably look into getting my own
i'm starting to run out of romance novels at the library anyway hahaha
you can bother me. you can bother me as many times as you want. ava's not here ALL the time. even when she is, food's not so easy to get out this way, so she'll usually have to go back to the hotel to grab a meal. i mean, i got SOME things and
omg 😂😂😂😂 wanna hear something funny?
i've been trying to BAKE. yeah i know. that's a fucking hilarious mental image. like the shit is turning out *fine* because it's simple for me to follow the steps in a recipe and get things measured out precisely, but idk how to tweak recipes to make them taste better so it's either bland or like too salty. i have yet to find that sweet spot
but like it's easier to get the ingredients to make something instead of getting the actual bread from the kitchen. less time i gotta spend working it off just to feed these dumb humans that stay at my house sometimes 🙄🙄🙄
lol but anyway, i went off on a tangent there. point is, i don't mind whenever you wanna stop by and play. but also, i think it'd be really nice if you could get a keyboard in your own place because i think that would give you something good to channel your thoughts into?
people don't tend to get pissed off enough to kill you over a song.
......usually.
[ Some people definitely had some hair pin triggers with their anger. ]
[ She's excitedly typing out an acceptance of his offer...but then she frowns. There's something building in her chest, a familiar feeling of wrongness. Of sneaking behind people's backs, being selfish, ignoring how her actions might affect relationships...
Slowly, she sighs, then clears out everything she'd typed. Boundaries, she reminds herself. ]
the god of technology is trying to bake??? wow 😜
but to be serious.....
i'd rather you talked to ava about this first. if she's fine with it, then i'll come over at times that work for the both of you
[ Right. Ava. Because talking about things is why they work so well. And sometimes Tech still gets swept up in the things he wants to do without thinking of the consequences -- how she might be uncomfortable with Monika's presence in his life again. Granted, he doesn't think Ava would ever try to control him to a point of telling him who he could and couldn't hang out with -- but it might start to breed an insecurity in her and he doesn't want that. ]
yeah. you're right. i know you're right.
i'll ask her.
and i mean, who knows. maybe there's a chance you and her could get along in the end.
i mean if you're interested in that....
i don't wanna force you into something uncomfortable
[ Speaking of uncomfortable partners.... ]
i *am* making an effort with kaiba, btw.
it's not easy, but i guess forgiveness never is....
[ He says she's right, but part of her still secretly wished he'd be the bad guy and tell her eff the rules, come over anyway! Then at least she wouldn't have to feel as guilty. But. Again. Growth and all that. ]
yeah, maybe we could
[ Which is about all she's going to say about getting along with Ava. ]
and it's nice to hear you're trying with kaiba....
[ Should she type this? She shouldn't type this. She-- ]
if i had working on his system with you to look forward to again, life would be perfect
[ --typed it. Crap. Talk about forcing someone into something uncomfortable! ]
lol sorry, i shouldn't joke about that!!! i know you're probably going someplace else after this, which you should
sooo yeah! if you wanna see me, you know where i am now. just text me if you're stopping by 💕💕
[ Because it's time to do what she does best: run like the wind. ]
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[ Literally a second later: ]
and done. what's up?
[ And he braces himself. Because if Monika wants to tell him something with encryption, it's probably not a good thing, right? ]
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[ Which might not be helping his fear that she's about to drop some crazy bomb... ]
anyway! i just wanted to let you know i'm moving to a different room!! 📦📦 it's going to be 443 now!!
you know....just in case you wanted to see me or anything
and so you don't go to my old room
like jic that happened again or something
though you could probably tell i'd moved anyway....
[ Stop typing, fingers, please. God, she's forgotten how to talk to him normally. ]
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who are you hiding from?
[ If it's Kaiba, he's going to have to make an exception to his vow to not murder again. Although, maybe that should have an asterisk beside it anyway...because this place had a way of being unpredictable at best.
....admittedly, though. He does feel warm inside that it's not him she's hiding from this time. ]
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[ How did he figure that out so fast?! Ugh, she needs to stop hanging around so many smart people... ]
i'm simply being smart
[ Which is exactly what someone that isn't hiding from another person would say. ]
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someone who might be wanting to hide from someone else with decent technological skills....
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[ ...Whoops.
Dammit. She used to be so much better at lying. She needs to practice again! ]
look
i just made someone a little angry
there's nothing wrong with wanting to stay safe!!!
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what kind of angry are we talking? the kind where they give out your address so you can get annoying magazines? or the kind where they're actively hunting you down with the intent to hurt?
and what can i do?
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nbd nbd, we're in hell so death would just be a minor inconvenience, so you don't have to do anything on your end! just don't tell anyone i've moved unless i say it's okay to and everything will be fine! ❤️
[ So now that the bomb's detonated, how to distract from the explosion...?
Ah, yes! ]
btw i found someone that might be able to help with your magic problem 🥰
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it honestly amazes me you got more people who wanna kill you here than i do. and that heart emote doesn't fool me yanno!!! 😤
but fine. who is it?
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[ If she uses enough exclamation points, that makes things extra fine. Because her life is NORMAL and FINE. ]
anyway~~
his name is atem. he's a pharaoh!! and apparently he knows a lot about soul magic, so....absolutely perfect right?? 😁😁 i'll send you his contact info in a bit
oh and if he says i'm his wife, don't worry, it's only temporary
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[ Nope. All the exclamation points in the world aren't nearly enough. But soul magic is nice. It's handy. It's....
what.
Monika, why. ]
monika why. you KNOW marriage here ain't temporary.
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i'm going to fix it!! i just really need to stay away from the park i think.....
anyway point is he's probably going to be your best bet
his username is....
god he's the weirdest king i've ever met
it's...dumbpissbaby?? i guess it's ironic 🤔🤔
i hope he can help you out!! ❤️❤️❤️
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[ For a girl who wants to be human so bad, she sure spends a whole lot of time away from earth in this land called DELUSION! ]
but the good thing about marriages is they're NBD. you can basically pretend they don't exist. nothing changed between hazel and me lol.
but uhhhh thanks for the name. if he can't help me out, i'll be the first to say he's not very good husband material 😋
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i mean normally i wouldn't care.... [ Obviously. ] but the situation's a little too complicated
[ Read: she unknowingly married the one person in Hell Kaiba would throw an absolute shitfit over. ]
no need to remind me of that woman's existence though, thank you 🙄
[ She's allowed to openly hate Hazel now with no fear. Get rekt, blonde bimbo! ]
good luck on your end too 😝
no matter how it works out, at least now i have a vegetarian who understands my struggle
[ Such a tortured soul. ]
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is there honestly anyone in your life that's simple and NOT messy right now?
or i'll even take any THING that's simple and not messy right now.....
because every time i get a life update it's like your world's on the edge of falling apart. someone threatening you to a point where you moved, a new marriage you're trying to get annulled, finding out you wanted to hunt me down and murder me after i'd shown you where i lived and everything....
lol i mean fuck, monika. can you have one NORMAL month?
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ummm.....i'd have to think about it......
[ Which is to say, she has a lot of situations to sort through before she could decide if any of them are "simple." ]
look!! i know it seems bad, but it really isn't!!! these things are minor and i've handled worse, so i'm not worried
....well minus the trying to kill you thing, but i ended up in a fight with a demon so that solved itself before it could get super bad
the point is, even with all this going on....i really am happy! like....you're talking to me again
if i have to deal with a million crazy months from now on, at least i've got that. simple enough for me ☺️
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i mean, that's sweet of you to say and all but i'd still be talking to you if you had a million normal months too
i'm not going anywhere
so you don't gotta go to such extreme measures to chase some happiness. and you should probably take it easy on pissing off the wrong people here.
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i don't know how to live normally anymore
[ What a weird thing to admit. But it's true. ]
i just do whatever it takes to be happy.....
after we broke up i didn't know what else to do to keep from spiraling, so i started going after whatever might give me a little of it, even more than i used to
i don't think i can stop....
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but take it from a guy who has done a whole lot of fucking drugs to escape his problems.....
what buys you happiness for a moment won't last forever. sometimes you need the escape or crutch, but also sometimes you need to sit in your hurt to understand that you don't gotta go to extremes to be happy
like surely when you're playing music, things seem normal for a little while, right? and you're happy. i mean, you seem happy when you play.
your new place have a piano or keyboard or something? i think kaiba's is still floating around in hellburbia. needs a good cleaning, but if you can con some demons into moving it over for you, you can have your own place to create music
[ And yeah. Maybe he'll be bummed that she's not coming to his house anymore to play, but also it's not about him. It's about Monika finding some kind of balance in her life again. ]
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i guess at least i've stopped with drinking too much champagne?? lol....
maybe i've gotten too used to extremes??? but you're right. whenever i can write music or play it, it reminds me of a time when i had a real goal. when i had something to look forward to
hmm.....
i could probably ask for a piano, or at least a keyboard for portability. i don't think i'd want kaiba's....it'd be too weird to use that one
yours is really nice though. i like the way it sounds
[ And the memories that came with it, but she probably shouldn't say anything about that. ]
i can't constantly bother you to use yours though so....yeah i should probably look into getting my own
i'm starting to run out of romance novels at the library anyway hahaha
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omg 😂😂😂😂 wanna hear something funny?
i've been trying to BAKE. yeah i know. that's a fucking hilarious mental image. like the shit is turning out *fine* because it's simple for me to follow the steps in a recipe and get things measured out precisely, but idk how to tweak recipes to make them taste better so it's either bland or like too salty. i have yet to find that sweet spot
but like it's easier to get the ingredients to make something instead of getting the actual bread from the kitchen. less time i gotta spend working it off just to feed these dumb humans that stay at my house sometimes 🙄🙄🙄
lol but anyway, i went off on a tangent there. point is, i don't mind whenever you wanna stop by and play. but also, i think it'd be really nice if you could get a keyboard in your own place because i think that would give you something good to channel your thoughts into?
people don't tend to get pissed off enough to kill you over a song.
......usually.
[ Some people definitely had some hair pin triggers with their anger. ]
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Slowly, she sighs, then clears out everything she'd typed. Boundaries, she reminds herself. ]
the god of technology is trying to bake??? wow 😜
but to be serious.....
i'd rather you talked to ava about this first. if she's fine with it, then i'll come over at times that work for the both of you
i'm not trying to create any problems for you two
[ Look at all this GROWTH. Ugh, it hurts... ]
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yeah. you're right. i know you're right.
i'll ask her.
and i mean, who knows. maybe there's a chance you and her could get along in the end.
i mean if you're interested in that....
i don't wanna force you into something uncomfortable
[ Speaking of uncomfortable partners.... ]
i *am* making an effort with kaiba, btw.
it's not easy, but i guess forgiveness never is....
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yeah, maybe we could
[ Which is about all she's going to say about getting along with Ava. ]
and it's nice to hear you're trying with kaiba....
[ Should she type this? She shouldn't type this. She-- ]
if i had working on his system with you to look forward to again, life would be perfect
[ --typed it. Crap. Talk about forcing someone into something uncomfortable! ]
lol sorry, i shouldn't joke about that!!! i know you're probably going someplace else after this, which you should
sooo yeah! if you wanna see me, you know where i am now. just text me if you're stopping by 💕💕
[ Because it's time to do what she does best: run like the wind. ]