there really something worth staying in this place for? a kingdom here is still a kingdom in hell, limited and ultimately under the power of someone else. like lucifer or lucifer's daddy dearest.
why not find a way into another world where you can really carve out a place for yourself? i'm sure the way out is connected to all of the places we came from. no reason you can't take a fucking detour and go someplace other than home.
Sure, we could find our way into another world eventually. Which would give the humans among us about 25 to 40 years, max, before we die again. Just putting off the inevitable. Plus, everyone I like, barring one, is here already.
And I happen to like Hell, apart from all the torture and the heat, hence the need for a more independent community.
"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life"
you think if lucifer, a fallen angel, can give you immortality in hell, I, an actual god, can't give you eternal life wherever else? find a way to restore my powers and there's no end to the shit i can do
uh the god has been away from a proper fucking power source since getting in this shithole. if i was running full capacity, lucifer would be crying like the fucking bitch he is. i'm not the ONLY god i know. not here and not back home. you'd just have to trust me.
but you won't. even tho i've done everything i said i could do for you.
so fine. make your deals with demons instead, even if they've been riding your ass with torture since you got here. i won't say i told you so cuz i like you, man. but i'll def think it
depends on the crime. i'm not afraid to get my hands dirty.
just had a very messy breakup with my ex. she cheated on me with like ten other people. she ripped my heart out figuratively so i did the same to her. only literally.
Well, better to have to realize that one of his potential partners is a murdering psychopath now instead of later on. Fortunate that this is text so that he has no chance of letting on how detestable he finds that sentiment.
He's worked with crazy before. He doesn't love it, but he's managed it. Unpredictability, especially the kind that leads to violence, chills him. It hits too close to home. Even if Tech's girlfriend is some kind of AI or computer, the casualness of that statement just doesn't sit well with him.]
[ It's text, yes. But Leonard's usually a more than two word kind of guy. So Tech can at least tell he's not jumping for joy. ]
dude you have no idea what i went through. i cheated on her once. i felt so guilty about it and told her. her response? she fucking stabbed me
she said she would wait for me to revive and kill me over and over and over again.
i endured it because i loved her and eventually she "forgave me"
only to find out she was cheating on ME that whole fucking time with ten other people, including the one i had slipped up with. wtf was i supposed to do?
[ Seriously.....please tell him what he was supposed to do, because he doesn't know. It had hurt so bad. It still hurts. Killing her hadn't made it better. ]
What were you supposed to do? Once the knives came out, you needed to leave. Or you needed to break up with her before you cheated. Killing someone you love only ruins two people.
[ Oh how he wishes it were true. But the god of technology is uniquely placed to be constantly walked over -- by other gods and humans. Technology by its nature is designed to be used and even in the modern era it has yet to find its own independence. ]
i don't know how. like genuinely.
all of the information of the world in my head, endless forums and discussions about love and relationships, dating sites, ebooks, self-love affirmations and advice columns and i still can't crack that code about what makes someone 'worthy of love.'
That might be your problem right there. You overthink it.
Not that I'm the world's greatest expert, I've never been capable of it. But I know what I want and don't want out of a relationship. Doesn't sound like you've worked that part out yet.
honestly i'm surprised you haven't found someone. you seem like the type who would have a lot of people into you. you're cool, good looking, got that whole supervillain vibe going for you. that's not me coming onto you, i don't really swing that way -- that's just me spitting facts.
so like if you don't have much luck, there's not much hope for me lol.
but whatever. we'll have projects. and your team, if you still want me on it and all.
Oh I've been propositioned plenty. I'm just picky about my partners. Nobody I can't trust to pull a knife on me when I'm asleep, or leave me handcuffed where I can't get away. No one who's a moron, either. You'd be surprised how much that limits my selection.
I don't want you on it if you're going to get homicidal without warning. Most of the crew can handle themselves but there's a kid on the team.
lol i guess yeah. especially here i can see what you mean.
[ Hell......probably isn't the best place to find a romantic partner. Period. ]
promise i'm not gonna go homicidal. that was a one time thing. i am...still navigating emotions. it's a new thing for my system, so that was a moment of instability. but i felt guilt, remorse. didn't like how it made me feel afterward, so it's not going to happen again. plus i got a programmer who is keeping me in top shape now. i'm good. you're good. your kid will be good.
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why not find a way into another world where you can really carve out a place for yourself? i'm sure the way out is connected to all of the places we came from. no reason you can't take a fucking detour and go someplace other than home.
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Sure, we could find our way into another world eventually. Which would give the humans among us about 25 to 40 years, max, before we die again. Just putting off the inevitable. Plus, everyone I like, barring one, is here already.
And I happen to like Hell, apart from all the torture and the heat, hence the need for a more independent community.
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you're forgetting one thing, bro. you know a god.
"For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life"
you think if lucifer, a fallen angel, can give you immortality in hell, I, an actual god, can't give you eternal life wherever else? find a way to restore my powers and there's no end to the shit i can do
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But what's my guarantee? And how is it that one guy calling himself an angel is more powerful than another guy calling himself a god?
Not to mention that IF this works, I'd owe you big. And I don't like that.
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but you won't. even tho i've done everything i said i could do for you.
so fine. make your deals with demons instead, even if they've been riding your ass with torture since you got here. i won't say i told you so cuz i like you, man. but i'll def think it
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I also don't like trusting anyone. Especially guys with way more power than me.
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[ ....This doesn't really have anything to do with Leonard. The godly one is going through some shit. ]
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just had a very messy breakup with my ex. she cheated on me with like ten other people. she ripped my heart out figuratively so i did the same to her. only literally.
guess it's good i didn't introduce you to her.
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Well, better to have to realize that one of his potential partners is a murdering psychopath now instead of later on. Fortunate that this is text so that he has no chance of letting on how detestable he finds that sentiment.
He's worked with crazy before. He doesn't love it, but he's managed it. Unpredictability, especially the kind that leads to violence, chills him. It hits too close to home. Even if Tech's girlfriend is some kind of AI or computer, the casualness of that statement just doesn't sit well with him.]
Guess so.
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dude you have no idea what i went through. i cheated on her once. i felt so guilty about it and told her. her response? she fucking stabbed me
she said she would wait for me to revive and kill me over and over and over again.
i endured it because i loved her and eventually she "forgave me"
only to find out she was cheating on ME that whole fucking time with ten other people, including the one i had slipped up with. wtf was i supposed to do?
[ Seriously.....please tell him what he was supposed to do, because he doesn't know. It had hurt so bad. It still hurts. Killing her hadn't made it better. ]
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What were you supposed to do? Once the knives came out, you needed to leave. Or you needed to break up with her before you cheated. Killing someone you love only ruins two people.
Then again, what do I know?
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i turned a blind eye to everything just to feel like someone actually gave a shit about me and when it all turned out to be a lie, i snapped
i'm not proud of it. but i'm also fucking tired of people thinking they can walk all over me.
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And maybe you need to make yourself worthy of love. Would you love you?
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i don't know how. like genuinely.
all of the information of the world in my head, endless forums and discussions about love and relationships, dating sites, ebooks, self-love affirmations and advice columns and i still can't crack that code about what makes someone 'worthy of love.'
if you know the formula, i'm all ears...
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Not that I'm the world's greatest expert, I've never been capable of it. But I know what I want and don't want out of a relationship. Doesn't sound like you've worked that part out yet.
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so like if you don't have much luck, there's not much hope for me lol.
but whatever. we'll have projects. and your team, if you still want me on it and all.
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I don't want you on it if you're going to get homicidal without warning. Most of the crew can handle themselves but there's a kid on the team.
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[ Hell......probably isn't the best place to find a romantic partner. Period. ]
promise i'm not gonna go homicidal. that was a one time thing. i am...still navigating emotions. it's a new thing for my system, so that was a moment of instability. but i felt guilt, remorse. didn't like how it made me feel afterward, so it's not going to happen again. plus i got a programmer who is keeping me in top shape now. i'm good. you're good. your kid will be good.
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Good. Glad to hear it.