people are usually starting fights with me back home. actual fights. I thought I'd spice things up.
I don't know if we can ever be friends. I offered after I apologized for killing her but she said it wasn't a good idea. that you'd think she was stealing me away from you and that you deserved something that was yours.
i probably wouldn't have been okay with it back then. i still don't necessarily trust her around you, but i trust you. i trust you more than anyone, so i know you're not gonna fall for any BS. and i know you can also totally fucking kick someone's ass, so no one's gonna be coming out of the woodwork to murder you lol
but no. i def don't think kaiba makes her better. he makes people worse. it's what he did to me. it's what he's doing to monika. you've seen the guy. you've seen how fast he's going full demon. and now it's the same with monika. i don't know if there's any saving either of them, really.
but dude!! don't you know a bunch of nuns? who the fuck's starting a fight with you?
I guess neither of them are your problem anymore. they've made their beds, now they have to lie in them... but I get it if you still care about them.
not all nuns are saints. there was this one called lilith who really had it out for me. she'd trained to be the next halo bearer her whole life so when I got it out of nowhere she was pissed. she wanted to take it out of me. by force. then she died protecting me from a demon.
she was a bitch but she didn't deserve that. she deserved the halo more than me. maybe I should have let have it but I'm pretty much dead without it. I wanna live too much to die again.
yo. this bitch just straight up would have ripped the halo out of you and let you go back to being dead? that's fucked. and fuck no!!!! she didn't deserve it 'more than you.' idc how much she prepared for it or how badly she wanted it. it didn't want her. if it did, it wouldn't have brought you back to life. or if she was the one meant to have it, when she got near to you it would have fucking popped out of your back like a dvd for her to take.
you don't get things in life by wanting them badly enough. it's like you and me. i didn't just see a pretty girl the night we met and decide to make her my girlfriend. there was something in us that makes us a perfect match. the experiences we've gone through and how we can relate to one another. and then everything else fell into place. and i imagine it's the same for the halo. there's something in you that made it choose you over lilith. and obviously even she was able to see that if she died protecting you in the end.
idk about any sort of intuition, but i'm just relaying facts. at least how i see them.
and i'm a god, so clearly that gives me some super special perspective 😌😇😜
but loki was def better on the intuition/saying the right thing front. he could be terse and a little standoffish, but he always listened and gave the best advice.
[ Lame or not, he appreciates it coming from Ava. And he doesn't want to spend too long being down about this. ]
well, the good thing about me, babydoll, is i can't forget anything. so in many ways, he'll always be there and i'll always remember everything he said.
but for now, you and i got a date to vandalize some shit. wear some clothes you don't mind getting full of paint lol
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people are usually starting fights with me back home. actual fights. I thought I'd spice things up.
I don't know if we can ever be friends. I offered after I apologized for killing her but she said it wasn't a good idea. that you'd think she was stealing me away from you and that you deserved something that was yours.
you don't think kaiba makes her better?
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but no. i def don't think kaiba makes her better. he makes people worse. it's what he did to me. it's what he's doing to monika. you've seen the guy. you've seen how fast he's going full demon. and now it's the same with monika. i don't know if there's any saving either of them, really.
but dude!! don't you know a bunch of nuns? who the fuck's starting a fight with you?
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not all nuns are saints. there was this one called lilith who really had it out for me. she'd trained to be the next halo bearer her whole life so when I got it out of nowhere she was pissed. she wanted to take it out of me. by force. then she died protecting me from a demon.
she was a bitch but she didn't deserve that. she deserved the halo more than me. maybe I should have let have it but I'm pretty much dead without it. I wanna live too much to die again.
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you don't get things in life by wanting them badly enough. it's like you and me. i didn't just see a pretty girl the night we met and decide to make her my girlfriend. there was something in us that makes us a perfect match. the experiences we've gone through and how we can relate to one another. and then everything else fell into place. and i imagine it's the same for the halo. there's something in you that made it choose you over lilith. and obviously even she was able to see that if she died protecting you in the end.
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lol like a dvd... you dork ❤️
I guess she wouldn't have sacrificed herself if she didn't think maybe I was the one who was meant to have the halo all along...
how do you always know the right thing to say to make me feel better??? is it a god's intuition or something?
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and i'm a god, so clearly that gives me some super special perspective 😌😇😜
but loki was def better on the intuition/saying the right thing front. he could be terse and a little standoffish, but he always listened and gave the best advice.
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everything he taught you, every piece of advice he gave? keep it close to your heart and he'll always be with you.
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well, the good thing about me, babydoll, is i can't forget anything. so in many ways, he'll always be there and i'll always remember everything he said.
but for now, you and i got a date to vandalize some shit. wear some clothes you don't mind getting full of paint lol
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I'll wear some cute dungarees that would actually look cool if I got paint on them. hipster chic!
I love you. see you soon 😘