[ There's a brief moment where the world feels a little like its spinning off its axis. While Tech has come to believe it's possible to love multiple people, it hits very different seeing K's name among the list of Jayce's. The other people are human (or close enough to it) that they can decide and know the implications of romance. K is still trying to figure himself out and the things he wants. Maybe it's possible K wants Jayce. But that has to be for K to decide. And Tech worries. He worries because as a general rule humans cannot be trusted. No matter how nice they are or if they come in the form of legends. They don't know what they're doing with technology. In terms of technology, and to quote Jurassic Park here, humans are so preoccupied with whether they could, they don't stop to think if they should.
K's entire race was created to be a slave to humanity and put out of commission when they broke the rules. Used, abused, and discarded. Here, K is free. And Tech simply doesn't know Jayce enough to trust him with K's heart. So there's a prolonged pause before he replies, and in place of the advice of before comes a fierce protectiveness. ]
k is NOT a possession or a commodity to be 'kept' simply because you're worried about his fate and future. you better examine your heart and you better be 120% certain you are interested in him because if you hurt him in any way, there will be consequences. i will not see him go through the same hurts i went through the first time i involved myself romantically with a human. he might have parameters in place to allow him to not harm a human, but i do not.
[ Thinly veiled threats aside... ]
that said, you ARE being selfish. the primary way you're being selfish is by deciding NOT to tell viktor and let him decide what he wants to do with the information. you're deciding it for him and that's even more unfair than laying all your cards on the table. simply because you have a hard time loving you doesn't mean you should keep the opportunity from other people, dude.
[ Jayce is a bit taken aback by the sudden shift in the mood, but once he gets over the intensity of Tech's response, he can't help but smile a little. He knows about K's life back home, how unfair and cruel it is, and the last thing Jayce wanted was for K to feel like he's not safe here, so Tech being so protective of him is very telling of their relationship.
He turns his replies into video, so Tech can see his face because Jayce feels like text alone doesn't always convey messages properly, especially important ones. ]
Ey. [ He looks serious, but his voice is low and sincere. He's giving Tech a look that can be read as appreciation despite the previous message they shared. ] I'm glad to know that K has someone who looks after him so fiercely. He needs more people like that. I can just give you my word, and you can choose to believe me or not, but trust me when I tell you that he means a great deal to me too, and I don't want to see him hurt.
In the end, if I tell him how I feel,..if I manage that, it will always be his decision. I wouldn't make K do anything he doesn't want to. [ Tech is free to kick his ass if that happens, and Jayce wouldn't even try to defend himself. ] As for Viktor...ah, I know you're right. Probably. It's just difficult, it's all. I'll try to do better.
[ Tech doesn't often like the video function on these devices, but he can recognize the very human need for them sometimes. Especially with those who are from an older sort of world. Jaskier didn't often like text for the same reasons. Well, the version Tech had known in Penance anyway. So, it's with reluctance that Tech makes the switch to video and the expression on his face remains skeptical for a moment as Jayce gives his word because Tech doesn't know him well enough to know what his word means. In his experience with humans, their word can be fleeting -- meaning something only until something better comes along.
But the skepticism eases as Jayce affirms he will allow the decision to be K's decision. It's a good enough start. Tech just hopes in hope -- that this will be something good for K and not the opposite. Jayce is a legend. That makes him a good man. If he were a myth, maybe Tech would put an end to it immediately or at least interrogate to a greater degree. But he's not. This place deemed Jayce a hero and that makes him better than Tech Boy to that end. A better option for K. ]
What you need to understand about people like K and myself is we have seen the worst of humanity, but at the same time, we are plagued by this feeling of loneliness and wanting to belong to someone. In the place I was at before this one, I fell in love twice and got burned by it. In both cases because they found someone they deemed better than me, and it turned out in the end, they found each other and left me behind.
You're not them. I know that. But I also can't help but worry K will take a chance and potentially be burned by that choice. I can't see him be hurt like I was. I can't see him lose hope and become jaded about relationships. I don't want him to know that darkness, so you gotta forgive me if I give you the third degree, if I watch you a little closer and question your motives. Because I love K, too.
[ Tech doesn't necessarily mean it that way (although he also doesn't NOT mean it that way), but there's little denying what he feels is a love. A fierce, protective love to make absolutely certain K is happy above all else. ]
[ ooc: omg, I'm sorry, I thought I had replied to this weeks ago. If you want to drop this I totally understand. ]
[ Jayce still isn't very fast when it comes to typing using the relic (and he doesn't like to make grammar mistakes), because this kind of technology doesn't exist yet in this world. That's why he often prefers video, even if in this case it was because he wanted Tech to see him.
He listens to Tech and doesn't answer immediately, not about to dismiss any of what's been said because Jayce knows is the truth. K's reality was terrible like that, at least, since he's still getting to know Tech so Jayce doesn't know his hardship. He doesn't doubt him, though. ]
That's really rough, I'm sorry. I can't imagine what it's like to go through all that, even more than once.
Relationships are also a new thing to me, I never had a lasting partner before, or that many flings either. I was very work focused. So I might make mistakes, even if I try not to, but I don't want to cause K any grief.
I don't mind the third degree, sometimes we need to keep others accountable and remind them of what's truly important. As I said already, I'm glad K has people like you in his life.
[ As a friend or as someone who loves K more than that. Jayce actually interprets it as the last option, but sometimes there's very little difference. ]
Thank you, Tech, for letting me know and for keeping me on my toes.
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K's entire race was created to be a slave to humanity and put out of commission when they broke the rules. Used, abused, and discarded. Here, K is free. And Tech simply doesn't know Jayce enough to trust him with K's heart. So there's a prolonged pause before he replies, and in place of the advice of before comes a fierce protectiveness. ]
k is NOT a possession or a commodity to be 'kept' simply because you're worried about his fate and future. you better examine your heart and you better be 120% certain you are interested in him because if you hurt him in any way, there will be consequences. i will not see him go through the same hurts i went through the first time i involved myself romantically with a human. he might have parameters in place to allow him to not harm a human, but i do not.
[ Thinly veiled threats aside... ]
that said, you ARE being selfish. the primary way you're being selfish is by deciding NOT to tell viktor and let him decide what he wants to do with the information. you're deciding it for him and that's even more unfair than laying all your cards on the table. simply because you have a hard time loving you doesn't mean you should keep the opportunity from other people, dude.
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He turns his replies into video, so Tech can see his face because Jayce feels like text alone doesn't always convey messages properly, especially important ones. ]
Ey. [ He looks serious, but his voice is low and sincere. He's giving Tech a look that can be read as appreciation despite the previous message they shared. ] I'm glad to know that K has someone who looks after him so fiercely. He needs more people like that. I can just give you my word, and you can choose to believe me or not, but trust me when I tell you that he means a great deal to me too, and I don't want to see him hurt.
In the end, if I tell him how I feel,..if I manage that, it will always be his decision. I wouldn't make K do anything he doesn't want to. [ Tech is free to kick his ass if that happens, and Jayce wouldn't even try to defend himself. ] As for Viktor...ah, I know you're right. Probably. It's just difficult, it's all. I'll try to do better.
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But the skepticism eases as Jayce affirms he will allow the decision to be K's decision. It's a good enough start. Tech just hopes in hope -- that this will be something good for K and not the opposite. Jayce is a legend. That makes him a good man. If he were a myth, maybe Tech would put an end to it immediately or at least interrogate to a greater degree. But he's not. This place deemed Jayce a hero and that makes him better than Tech Boy to that end. A better option for K. ]
What you need to understand about people like K and myself is we have seen the worst of humanity, but at the same time, we are plagued by this feeling of loneliness and wanting to belong to someone. In the place I was at before this one, I fell in love twice and got burned by it. In both cases because they found someone they deemed better than me, and it turned out in the end, they found each other and left me behind.
You're not them. I know that. But I also can't help but worry K will take a chance and potentially be burned by that choice. I can't see him be hurt like I was. I can't see him lose hope and become jaded about relationships. I don't want him to know that darkness, so you gotta forgive me if I give you the third degree, if I watch you a little closer and question your motives. Because I love K, too.
[ Tech doesn't necessarily mean it that way (although he also doesn't NOT mean it that way), but there's little denying what he feels is a love. A fierce, protective love to make absolutely certain K is happy above all else. ]
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[ Jayce still isn't very fast when it comes to typing using the relic (and he doesn't like to make grammar mistakes), because this kind of technology doesn't exist yet in this world. That's why he often prefers video, even if in this case it was because he wanted Tech to see him.
He listens to Tech and doesn't answer immediately, not about to dismiss any of what's been said because Jayce knows is the truth. K's reality was terrible like that, at least, since he's still getting to know Tech so Jayce doesn't know his hardship. He doesn't doubt him, though. ]
That's really rough, I'm sorry. I can't imagine what it's like to go through all that, even more than once.
Relationships are also a new thing to me, I never had a lasting partner before, or that many flings either. I was very work focused. So I might make mistakes, even if I try not to, but I don't want to cause K any grief.
I don't mind the third degree, sometimes we need to keep others accountable and remind them of what's truly important. As I said already, I'm glad K has people like you in his life.
[ As a friend or as someone who loves K more than that. Jayce actually interprets it as the last option, but sometimes there's very little difference. ]
Thank you, Tech, for letting me know and for keeping me on my toes.